TW: Implicit References to Suicidal Ideation. I went for a haircut yesterday. The man cutting my hair held a portion of my tangled hair to ask me when was the last time that I took care of them and it made me want to disappear because it was a loud…

Trigger Warning: Violent Imagery of Death and Sexual Assault On a warm January of 2020, the child left and never came back. The ghost of the child stayed and haunted my bones. I lied. The child did not leave, it died. It was maliciously slaughtered to death. It was a…

“Loneliness is still time spent with the world” - Ocean Vuong I want to tell you how loneliness brushed my hair when you snuck out at five in the morning. (I remember the dirt on your walls and the stillness in your voice when you stared at it) I want…

Two dreams || I woke from a dreadful dream My mouth found its way to someone else’s. My shriveled up hands imitate the callousness of your fingers and my chest mimics the thud of a dead cat falling on the roof. I carefully place my heart between my legs hoping…

Femininity feels so unattainable to me. It feels like I am restricting myself from being feminine but also that the world is trying to make it look like an impermissible concept. I have always felt so small in front of people who are feminine, and after a point I don’t…

placing the rock between your teeth. on my knees, praying that it doesn’t crush me- while i place the swallow between mine. it is spring. to the sky, she is a sight it is spring but it is cold no amount of brown makes it warmer. i swallow, i swallow…

monos: you live in skepticism, you breathe it, and consume it. legein: you, you, you, my friend, you are tasting and swallowing the unelicited pathos. moreover,doubt intensifies faith. monos: except it doesn’t, you know what it does ? you are the spiral and you are spiralling, it coils you in. …